Whether your 10, 20, 50 or 100 if your violated sexually it's going to effect different people different ways and for some their life changes course so sharply that they are never able to regain control. Sometimes it's reported but the stigma attached to be a "victim" can follow you around forever. You may think you can just put it out of your mind, no one even needs to know about it, you'll just be more careful and avoid where it happened. You feel embarassed anyways, why couldn't you just stop it from happening? Your obviously weak, what kind of idiot let's that kind of stuff happen to them, well, I def can't tell anyone cause then I probably couldn't even get a job in this area, I love it here and if this gets out every business will know how weak I am mentally and then forget about anything physical.
At first it's nothing THAT serious, little acting out but you do well enough in school that your parents don't really notice anything, plus with all of the sports that come with practice's nearly everyday you don't really have time to think about any of that. Start talking to a few of the "bad" kids at school, that kind of stuff could never happen to them, there way too tough, maybe you should just be more like them? In your head you know that's not you, whether it's because you want someone to see you smoking a cigarette and your acting out or it's just a diversion I grew out of it pretty quick.
Next up was my best friend and evolved into someone that was so important to me throughout high school and college years that rarely did I go more then 12-18 hours without seeing them and we NEVER used protection.....I blacked out literally more times then I didn't and by the time I was asked about looking at my liver by the doctor I was told that I've aged my liver over 20 beyond my actual age. I still to this day don't like beer and I never did, started with vodka because it was the cheapest half gallon, 7.99 for a Zarkoff 1.75 liter bottle. That was about 16ish and continued until around 25. I've been through more moments where I should have died then I care to say, more then 5 different occasions that either a paramedic or doctor told me there is no way I should have made it....I'm not saying this to brag and I'm not proud of it by any means, at least not now. I grew up doing my best to show I was the worst, I felt bad for myself and I let that control a lot more then I should have but it took those 10 years plus a few more to relize that.
ESPN commentator Rick Reilly on what was Penn State....
I eventually ended up in the hospital with alchohol poisoning and that was the last date I had with Vodka, we fought too much with each other and somehow when we were together I always ended up angry, yelling, drunk, and telling someone what I bitch I thought they were and if they stepped on my "Timb's" again I was giong to kill them....immature drunks guys, much much to much to drink to realize we were probably yelling over nothing 9/10, showing off to girls, and looked pretty stupid. Oh and for the record if you don't know, Timb's are Timberland boots. Just one of those random things that can happen when you get 150 drunk kids all in a room with girls, alcohol, beer pong which breeds competition, and obviously no "real" adults around for miles, haha.
Next up was Hot Damn, then Peppermintschnapps, then Goldschlagger, then it was Bacardi rum for the next probably 3-4 years before I switched to Crown Royal and then back to Bacardi and lastly attempted White Russian's but ended up abandoning that whore because she did not like me anymore and I ended up running to the bathroom and massacring that place floor to ceiling....not good, lol.....so I ended up finding a nice relaxing mix of Kahlua/Bailey's+Milk
Be ready for Part 2 this coming week.....
At first it's nothing THAT serious, little acting out but you do well enough in school that your parents don't really notice anything, plus with all of the sports that come with practice's nearly everyday you don't really have time to think about any of that. Start talking to a few of the "bad" kids at school, that kind of stuff could never happen to them, there way too tough, maybe you should just be more like them? In your head you know that's not you, whether it's because you want someone to see you smoking a cigarette and your acting out or it's just a diversion I grew out of it pretty quick.
Next up was my best friend and evolved into someone that was so important to me throughout high school and college years that rarely did I go more then 12-18 hours without seeing them and we NEVER used protection.....I blacked out literally more times then I didn't and by the time I was asked about looking at my liver by the doctor I was told that I've aged my liver over 20 beyond my actual age. I still to this day don't like beer and I never did, started with vodka because it was the cheapest half gallon, 7.99 for a Zarkoff 1.75 liter bottle. That was about 16ish and continued until around 25. I've been through more moments where I should have died then I care to say, more then 5 different occasions that either a paramedic or doctor told me there is no way I should have made it....I'm not saying this to brag and I'm not proud of it by any means, at least not now. I grew up doing my best to show I was the worst, I felt bad for myself and I let that control a lot more then I should have but it took those 10 years plus a few more to relize that.
ESPN commentator Rick Reilly on what was Penn State....
I eventually ended up in the hospital with alchohol poisoning and that was the last date I had with Vodka, we fought too much with each other and somehow when we were together I always ended up angry, yelling, drunk, and telling someone what I bitch I thought they were and if they stepped on my "Timb's" again I was giong to kill them....immature drunks guys, much much to much to drink to realize we were probably yelling over nothing 9/10, showing off to girls, and looked pretty stupid. Oh and for the record if you don't know, Timb's are Timberland boots. Just one of those random things that can happen when you get 150 drunk kids all in a room with girls, alcohol, beer pong which breeds competition, and obviously no "real" adults around for miles, haha.
Next up was Hot Damn, then Peppermintschnapps, then Goldschlagger, then it was Bacardi rum for the next probably 3-4 years before I switched to Crown Royal and then back to Bacardi and lastly attempted White Russian's but ended up abandoning that whore because she did not like me anymore and I ended up running to the bathroom and massacring that place floor to ceiling....not good, lol.....so I ended up finding a nice relaxing mix of Kahlua/Bailey's+Milk
Be ready for Part 2 this coming week.....
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